its been 8 months now since this nightmare started. Mentally it has been the toughest challenge I have ever faced and I am feeling exactly where I was 8 months ago as far as symptoms go.
For those who don’t know my history, this all kicked off after a prolonged period of stress with the final straw being the break up of a long term relationship I had been in. For many years I had been pushing to relocate from UK to Switzerland with my company, and finally got the opportunity. I arrived here in Zurich in January this year, and the first few months had been so busy, having to find a permanent residence to live, settling into my new job and also maintaining a relationship whereby I was flying back to the UK every other weekend to see my then girlfriend.
In March I decided the relationship was not working for me, so flew back to the UK broke up with my girlfriend and planned a 2 week vacation in Bali to see my best friend and get away from everything.
A couple of days after the breakup, and arriving back in Switzerland the dizziness started. I just woke up one morning and I felt off balance, and like things were moving around me.
To this day the symptoms have stayed pretty constant. That is, feeling like I am constantly off balance, especially when standing still and also things moving in my vision slightly also. The doctors over here believe I either have MdDS or MAV but are not sure, because I didnt respond to 2 migraine preventative treatments.
I guess I am writing this, as an update and also to get my thoughts out there.
I am getting closer to the point now, where I am going to give up my job here and move back to the UK. It will be like giving up a dream but I don’t think it has helped that I am over here on my own dealing with this constant illness without the support of family or friends close by. A lot of days consist of me battling to get out of bed, going to work, trying to sit down as much as possible to avoid the off balance symptoms, working all day, leaving between 5-6 and then just laying down at home. That is certainly no way to live right!? I mean I am only 27, i should be out with friends trying new things and fitting into my new life, but its just so hard.
I am flying back to the UK next month and will see Dr Surenthiran. Pending that meeting, I will then decide what to do. I still live in total disbelief that this is really happening to me. Its such a strange condition to live with.