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My symptoms weren’t any better in the UK in all honesty. I think it just felt comforting being around people who were supportive and chatty and upbeat and the company really helped. I don’t really blame Switzerland or the lifestyle for making this any better or worse but I think it just doesn’t help being here on my own.
The thing with it over here is that people are not as openly friendly as they are in the UK, its not so easy to build social networks and as I have had MAV since a couple of months after my move here, its been difficult pushing myself to go to social events and join clubs etc… which has left me fairly isolated. I have friends outside work and we do meet up to do things, but its always arranged and not like just popping round to their house to chill for the day or something like that.
When I lived in England, I was in a long term relationship and had been living with my girlfriend for 3 years. When I came to Switzerland I had grand ideas that I would meet a much more outgoing and ambitious girl and life would be fantastic. Little did I know what I was in for with MAV haha!
I know that if this crap went away I would be much happier here, but I just don’t know if it ever will while I live here. I have this feeling that sub consciously my mind does not feel totally secure here and this is somehow triggering the MAV.
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Rich, I really feel for you, life doesn’t go the way we want it or expected it to at all when MAV hits. I don’t know what switzerland is like, only been through the airports whilst travelling but I know the UK and yeah, you can meet a lot of people in pubs/clubs etc. I’ve just moved over to Canada from the UK to try and set up a new life over here and I’m having the same problem - can’t seem to find people to just chill with indoors. I can’t deal with stimuli from most other places. Plus, making the connections to begin with is difficult with such a limited life I have anyway right now thanks to mav. I don’t leave the house all that often.
You’ve had mav one year, but you are on medication that should see you through feeling a bit better soon… I’m turning the 4year corner very soon (4years down, beginning year 5 of this crap). It does go ON and ON for some of us, but others find the right treatment and diet and changes in lifestyle and start feeling better sooner. Also, beginning a relationship with this condition, well, I don’t think it’s possible!!! (To me, not anyway), I left my previous partner because I had to change and he couldn’t. I couldn’t deal with the drinking and drugging, fast paced life anymore. I’m 25 now and got hit with mav when I was 21years 6months. It doesn’t matter which country I’m in, my mav doesn’t change or get better to any extent. It’s always the same wherever I am in the world. But yeah, sounds like you’re a tad homesick and unsure where to go next, but like Jem said, it all becomes clear, eventually, one way or another. I hope you find some answers, somewhere…