Here is a brief story of what happened to me:
Short story, 4 months after the birth of my son I started feeling weird, after pumping (he never latched, but that is another story…or maybe not!.. I think the pumping kinda altered the natural progression of hormonal fluctuations). I got my period back at 4 1/2 months, after a VERY stressful period, and after all was done and solved, I got this rocking sensation and now I know other symptoms here (derealisation, like @Natty04 describes, or visual vertigo, extreme tiredness, full ears, pain, etc.). I thought it might be pospartum depression, went to the service, and yes, they diagnosed me with pp depression/anxiety, gave me zoloft, which gave me huge insomnia. In the middle of all this I started getting more spaced out and dizzy, and went back to work, great timing, AND we sleep-trained our son, and started weaning. I got the flu, then an ear infection, and insomnia was getting worse, lack of appetite and then the headaches started, and the nausea. I lost like 10 kilos in three months or so. Anyway, I stopped and restarted the zoloft a couple of times, with horrible side effects, and then I saw a neurologist that I self-referred and I told her my own diagnosis: I have vestibular migraines, she agreed and gave me effexor. By then I was so anxious about meds because the zoloft was horrendous that I ended in the hospital because I did not want to get on the effexor at home with my 8 months old! It was nuts, but doctors were super helpful and understanding. I had weaned by then and son was sleeping through the night. So from mid January to end of April, was really difficult. I started effexor May 1st, and titrated up to 75 mg in 5 days (while in the hospital) and stayed there for 4 months, I increased to 112.5 for month, and then 150 and this is where I am right now.
All is going pretty well. I still have the rocking most of the time, but really at this point I feel I can persuade my brain to stop firing the wrong signal, all the other symptoms are pretty controlled. I went to psychotherapy, hypnotherapy, acupuncturist. I think all that help to have a space of my own and to quiet down the mind while the meds did its part. I stayed on the migraine diet (a little extreme because I even cut gluten) for 4 months, and then started to reintroduce foods. I eat everything now, just not all at the same time. Like for breakfast I chose between yogurt or eggs, but not both, or only decaf coffee or one caffeinated tea. Only problem really is that my sleep is not super deep, but it never has been so… The other is that I got a rash and it had to change the generic from capsule to tablet, but the rash is gone. I occasionally have used CBD instead of ibuprofen or tylenol, but I am also not afraid of using them if it is once every two weeks or when I have my period. I am back exercising 3 -4 times a week. Last, I gained 7 kilos back, and trying VERY hard not to gain more (loosing some is a distant dream). I am even thinking now on having another baby! hehe Crazy. Last May I told everyone that this was it, never again.
So, my advise is to try meds and diet. Zoloft works for many people and you can keep nursing while on it. The other is at 4 months you can sleep train baby to sleep 8 hours. I would feed my son at 10 pm, and be with him if he cried but not feed him until 6 am (with the Ok of the pediatrician). By the third night he was sleeping 8 hours. He sleeps close to 12 now and eats everything. Sleep is VERY important. Try to go for walks with your son, that kept me sane. Plus it is nice when they are little because you can carry them or they can sleep in the stroller. Now my son only wants to run, so no more long walks for us. But before he walked, I used to walk at least 1 hour every day. And very important, don’t avoid things. Don’t get super exhausted, but try to go out, etc. Slowly you will see you start getting a feeling of normalcy again, even if dizzy. I just tell myself everyday that I told myself back in May that I wanted just to be less dizzy, and I am less dizzy, so I make the best out of this situation. I have bad moments during the day of course, but I try to acknowledge a bad/ negative thought, let it sink and go. (Why me? why all other moms look so happy? look at this mom, so successful and I need to take a nap right now… let them be, and let them go). I come here frequently because it kind of normalizes my experience for me.
Ok, went to long, you can PM if you want to chat or just vent. It is difficult, but not impossible. Watch the documentary “Heal”, it is kinda new age stuff, but I think the message is how powerful the mind is but also how our bodies can heal themselves. And I think this is why we need the meds for MAV, to control symptoms so our body can heal (or re-adapt to new normal).
Sending love your way.