When struck by the bout that led me down the path to this diagnosis, just over a year ago, I couldn’t do squat for a month. Since then I’ve tried to work what are for me full days, which hasn’t worked out all that well thus far. “Full” means up to 8-odd mental-manual plus a few at the computer, or the full amount at the computer.
The stress of work pressure, particularly deadline pressure, didn’t stop me, but I screwed up a whole lot. Exhaustion, overload, you know the drill. When I screw up, I do what it takes to make good, but it runs into time and mess, especially when I’m exhausted as I try to straighten things out.
I kept some very loyal customers; they appreciated my doing my best for them, and they value my dedication and special expertise. However, there are limits, and even I think it reached these limits even for those who wanted to stick it out with me, except when they needed a quick consult, inspection or repair. I dasn’t schedule any for a full day’s work any more, because my effectiveness diminishes so much after 3-5 hours.
That’s my electrical customers. My writing still holds up, though I haven’t felt the energy to propose new columns, features or books. A lot of computer crashes, corrupted files, etc., but so far haven’t been wiped out. I have no problem meeting deadlines with a monthly column, and am back up to speed with my regular volunteer responsibilities; and I’m doing reasonably well with current book deadlines. Hell, I expect to be able to catch up enough to put my bathroom back together soon.
For the past few weeks I have had no,zip,zero electrical customers scheduled, which is not a terrible thing. If not for medical bills and time incapacitated, I might not even have had to eke out my income the past couple of years from my savings, which quite a few people in the building trades have had to do (and worse).
What this adds up to is a lot of motivation to stick closely to whatever diet etc. prescriptions the doc thinks are worth trying, at least for long enough to see whether I can abate some of this limitation. It sounds really frustrating to be where some of you are, having done all you can and still being pretty limited.