This time last week I was really happy and thought ‘I must get round to writing my success story on the mvertigo forum’… I’d been back to work for 1 week, working 3 hours a day and feeling on top of the world that I had managed to get back to a sense of normality, working, going out with friends, drinking and dancing in a club! (Ok, getting massively carried away there prob didn’t help but a girl has got to knock back the vino before subjecting her friends to her dodgy dancing.) I even went to the gym on Monday for the first time in 5 months. I genuinely felt like I’d conquered the world!
Unfortunately, today, I have come on here after feeling increasingly symptomatic throughout the week, in terms of feeling knackered, feeling a lot more increase in pain in the face and nose, and generally describing my vision as ‘as though I’m about to have a migraine aura at any second’. And then this afternoon, while eating lunch in a pub garden before my shift, I had a really strange funny turn, which I havent felt like since this whole thing started on the very first day of feeling suddenly dizzy. :shock: I suddenly felt hot and cold and sweaty all at once, my legs and arms felt really heavy and tingly, as though ants were crawling over me, my heart was racing, and I felt spaced out and on another planet. I instantly freaked out big time. My mind started racing with thoughts that this can only mean this MAV thing has started another cycle, just like when it first started. I have also been stressing out as my work who offer an amazing sick pay scheme, have since withdrawn this benefit from me and I’m back to SSP only if I take another day off ever.
After an hour of sitting on a sofa, drinking water, and presuming my life was over again and picturing the baliffs coming round when I run out of money… I started to feel a little better. The tingly and heavyness went away gradually and by the end of the day, I’m left with the fuzzy/spaced out head, just a little less harsh, the vision feeling like I’m gonna get an aura in a second, and increased tinnitus which seems to be causing my whole brain to feel like it’s buzzing and pulsating.
My question is… what was this mini relapse? What’s happening to my bloody migraine brain?! My meds haven’t changed. The only thing thats changed is that I’m working 3-4 hours a day in an office, and admittedly I have had 1 day a week where I got drunk enough to cause me a hangover the next day. Oh, and of course those 2 nights, I only had about 6 hrs sleep. Is this, being a bit naughty, enough to cause me to feel increasingly crap and culminate in provoking a kind of relapse? And what is happened for those couple of hours to make me feel all weird and hot/cold/heavy/out of it etc?
I am praying that I go to bed tonight, and wake up feeling ok. I’m stressing out, and I know that doesn’t help.
Has anyone experienced anything like this? I am so confused. I thought I had a handle on this stuff. Now I’m scared that I’m never going to be able to work full time or in an office again. I can’t take this again. And a lottery win isn’t guaranteed to occur, in able to help if I can’t work.
So confused and disheartened.
God, sorry, I feel like all I do is ‘me me me me’ on here. I’m sorry. I hate being so self indulgent, but it’s hard not to be when you feel so uncontrol of your body. SIGH
I hope all you guys have had an ‘ok’ week… Bloody brains…
Lou x :oops: