Okay, I had about a week where I felt 90%, that has long since gone. For alittle over 2 weeks, I am back to my MAV symptoms. I’ve been on the Verapamil since 12/18. Dr. Hain said it can take 1 1/2 months to get the full affect. Should I switch medications? My symptoms are not as bad as before but still enough to interfere with my life. My head fullness, pressure, dips, motion intolerance, sensitivity is all back. Oh, and of course the anxiety is right with it. I really thought I was through this when I had that good week. I even blamed the relapse on my period. I can’t figure this condition out. My husband made me go to the YMCA today and exercise. I did it, but was not comfortable. Will I ever be myself again? At least when I get my cluster migraines, I know there is an end to them. Eventually, they just go away and return the next year. So, at least I get a 9 month break from them. I am missing out on so much. This weekend we were invited to a Super Bowl party, needless to say I won’t be going. My husband says maybe you’ll feel good on Sunday, it’s a few days away. I just can’t deal with crowds right now. My friend wants to come over with her kid tomorrow night to order pizza and hang out. First of all, I gave up pizza. Second of all, I am way to fidgety just sitting and talking to someone for a lenghty period of time. I keep making excuses and saying we are busy. Looks like I am stuck tomorrow. I either like to lay down or if I am sitting in a chair, I am fidgety/restless. I pick and choose the people I feel comfortable enough to be around. Not too many. Anxiety? MAV? I am not sure. I want my old self back soooo bad. My daughter and husband bought me a plaque, it reads"Believe, when it is beyond reason to believe". This is really putting my faith to the test. Am I supposed to be learning something from this awful experience? I am scared to try Topamax or Effexor. I am so sensitive to meds. I just don’t know about anything anymore.