I have a really stressful job as a primary school teacher and school leader but somehow have managed to continue to teach and run a school full time since developing constant MAV/ VM 3 years ago. I think the stress was a big factor in it becoming chronic, as I was going through some horrible life events at the time, and it was periods of stress letdown, ie holidays, when symptoms worsened. I think that somehow the stress, combined with an inner ear disorder (which was giving me recurrent bppv) and the menopause, all triggered this off. I have had no relief from meds and suffer all sorts of crap every day and yet it seems I can still thrive on stress at work. Today I taught 2 really fun and lively lessons which were judged as outstanding in front of 3 headteachers. How can I do that but on my day off struggle to make a cup of tea? I don’t get it.
Is my brain craving the chemicals/ hormones it got used to being flooded with when I got sick? Did that kind of become the new normal? Was stress interfering with inner ear compensation? And is it good for me to keep putting myself into that situation where I buzz with adrenalin and the MAV is shut out temporarily?