Hi Guys,
How are you all doing?
I have been struggling to monitor how Clonidine has been going as I’ve had a heap of other triggers thrown at me in the past couple of weeks including long haul flight, jet-lag, lack of sleep, too much alcohol, and more recently, the break down of a relationship.
My period is due this week so if the dizzies are better behaved than they usually are, under these circumstances I think Clonidine must be doing something. Will see.
My question is, does anyone experience sudden spins when they become suddenly emotional? And is this MAV or is it anxiety? Or a combination of both?
Even if I think about something sad, for example, I was just on the phone to someone who mentioned Mr MM and I said ‘We’ve broken up and are not moving in together’, my head did this massive WHOOSH that lasted a few seconds.
Why? I wasn’t particularly worked up- I was just stating a fact. It is so weird.
Of course, if I’m crying or emotional situation then the dizziness is suddenly ramped up high for an extended period of time. That is more understandable.
I had what I think is a panic attack on Saturday night. I wasn’t particularly worked up or anxious at the time, but I was having palpatations and all of a sudden, felt a rush, a kind of woosh, race from my head to my toes, all through my body. My friend said to me “Lou are you alright?” and I said ‘no!’. My hands were shaking, I couldln’t stand, my legs felt like jelly, I felt cold but I was burning up, my throat started to close up and I thought I was having a heart attack.
The next day I was way more dizzy than usual.
I want to control this. I don’t want to feel like this. Everything is so shit.
I was going to move in with him, he got a great new job with a great pay increase, I was going to able to take a different job on less hours as he could support us both, I was going to get better and be happier and less stressed. But he fucked it all up by being violent one evening when we were drunk. Totally not in his nature apparently… If I didn’t have MAV, if the depression and anxiety hadn’t taken over, if I hadn’t mixed my meds with alcohol, I don’t think we would have even got to this stage. I wouldn’t have been a pain in the arse, I would have been a happy person and easier to be in a relationship with.
I hate how much this illness has ruined my life.
Sorry- ranting. If anyone can relate to these sudden whoosh feelings through the head, when emotional, I’d be grateful to at least just know I’m not alone.
Thanks guys xx