I’m so tired of having no control over my own life. I had a relatively good week or two after ovulation, then my period started and i felt bad for a week. My period ended yesterday and out of nowhere my mav increased really badly and i spent the night vomiting, for no identifiable reason at all except the change in my hormones? I’m so fed up of being at the mercy of this hellish condition. I have no life whatsoever, i just survive. Everything within my power to control (skeep, food, routine, environment) hasn’t helped me even the tiniest bit. I’m sick of hearing about diet and lifestyle changes being sooooo important. What if they don’t help AT ALL? I’m so envious of anyone who can manage mav even just a little through diet and lifestyle. You are so lucky. If you have triggers you can’t avoid or manage, what then? I’m sick of the so called experts parroting on about lifestyle and duet as if it helps everyone with migraine. If it did, i’m sure there wouldn’t be thousands of people seeing headache specialists because they can’t find relief. Lifestyle and diet are easy options to manage and cost nothing, so i get how important they are but i’m tired of this attitude that it helps everyone with mav and you’ll definitely see improvement. Nope, sorry. Am I some difficult, doomed case? The NICE descriptions of chronic daily headache even say these patients are the “most difficult, labour intensive” to treat. Well thanks, that makes me feel like a nuisance. " The causes of many chronic daily headaches aren’t well-understood. True (primary) chronic daily headaches don’t have an identifiable underlying cause" well, that’s swell.
Do i have to live with this for 20 more years until menopause? Or will it last longer than that? Will anything ever bring any relief at all? I’m 30 years old for gods sake, life just passes me by while i’m trapoed in this cage that’s my body. I can’t do ANYTHING. I feel like just existing is a trigger. I’ve had this mess for 7 years and it’s only got worse over time. I’m sick of nobody knowing how to help me. I’m sick of being at the mercy of this shit. It’s not life, it’s existence, and i cannot face a life like this, it’s not worth it. I have to find relief and be able to live. I’m just so frustrated right now. So tired of the same old same old advice that does NOTHING.
I just needed to vent. (Feel free to move this post to the personal diaries section if it’s more suited for there, i wasn’t sure since i didn’t want to make a diary of symptoms and treatments, i just wanted to express feelings.)