I sometimes feel I can take on anything
I sometimes feel I’m unstoppable.
I sometimes feel immortal.
But today is not the same.
I feel I could break like glass.
I feel I have to fight just to make it.
I feel mortal and all the feelings that come with it.
Perfect. That is exactly how I have been feeling lately.
It is not always easy to remember
that in the fading light of day -
the shadows always point towards the dawn
Let me remember beyond forgetting -
Let me remember.
Winston O Abbott
Through the corridors of sleep
past the shadows dark and deep
my mind dances and leaps in confusion.
I don’t know what is real
I can’t touch what I feel
and I hide behind the shield of my illusion.
The mirror on my wall
casts an image dark and small
and I’m not sure at all it’s my reflection.
I’m blinded by the light
of God and truth and right
and I wander in the night without direction.
No matter if you’re born
to play the king or pawn
for the line is thinly drawn 'tween joy and sorrow
And so my fantasy becomes reality
and I must be what I must be and face tomorrow
So I’ll continue to continue to pretend
my life will never end
and flowers never bend with the rainfall.
~ just Rhymin’ Simon
hmmm you’d think Paul Simon had a vestibular problem! :?
The answer is 42.
Works for those brainfog days.
Wrong side of the bed again
Woke up cranky today
Head full of fears about yesterdays
I get up before my darling starts his passion play
Bedspreads pattern still Embedded on my face,
Hair a huge birds nests tuft’s left in its place.
Rattling around like an old ghost on a chain
Wishing I could just lay
As I watch him sleeping peacefully
Brain starts before coffee
Of which I need 3
It oils my aching bones from a lousy nights sleep
After I spent all night
Defending my side of the bed
Wrestling with blanket thieves
And trains running through my head
Run around picking up rubbish
That people have left,
Ranting like an old bag lady on the streets
Between My apologies for living, And yelling at Jesus
Laughing where, I shouldn’t through grinding teeth
With, No thankyou’s or pleases.
Thinking know one can tell
Except for the permanent line etched into my brow
How I’d love to start my day
Rolling around on with my love on our big soft bed
Before the storm, my ocean voyage
He was the one who rocked me slow.
Will this be the way forever now?
That takes the cake right there!!!
— Begin quote from "Brian B"
The answer is 42.
Works for those brainfog days.
— End quote
Ok, Brian, I’ll bite, are you talking American Tune?
I was wondering if he listens to Level 42
Ok Brian is probably mavoyering, giggling ,
I’m wracking my Brain trying to work this one out.
sounds of silence would make me think of migriane.
Hello darkness, my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Within the sound of silence
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
'Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence
“Fools”, said I, “You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you”
But my words, like silent raindrops fell
In the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said, “The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls”
And whispered in the sounds of silence
There once was a Mavoyeur girl
Whos head was always a twirl
The neuro said you’re ok
Just take Mr K
And your days will turn from sh*t to a pearl!
tacky limerick by guess who??!! :mrgreen:
Haven’t seen Brian or Jo, are you guys out there???
I think Brian did say in his defence that he doesn’t comment on ‘womens things’ and I think there’s been a bit of that lately!
I’ve been suffering from Mavoyeurism last couple of days too! 8)
Went to the gym yesterday, was feeling really good, thought I was normal - WRONG! Did push-ups on the floor like the other normal people WRONG! Should do them standing upright in front of a wall. Started getting dizzy just before bed and still dizzy today. I must be in denial or something, I think when I feel like I’m having a good day, that the whole MAV thing has gone away, when will I learn??
Sorry that happened. Let us know how things go.
I went to see my neuro-oto today. He was thrilled that i’m doing better but he’s suggesting that I try pushing myself to get some tolerance for the motion intolerance, which is my biggest problem. Can’t stand even the cat on the bed, let alone a drive in the car. He’s suggest starting slowly, driving down the driveway, getting used to that, etc.
I’m thinking, you’ve got to be kidding, i’m not sure you know how bad this is.
We do need to try to do things, i’ve done that with my walking - i’m up to 45 minutes a day at a good pace. But i did it very slowly (like everything else, with these micro-dot pieces of pills i take).
One of the guy board members talked about doing weights in a certain horizontal position being bad for him. Brian or MSDXD i think.
I hope Brian isn’t in trouble with the floods. He’s left us hanging with that “42 is the answer” thing.
I think he’s torturing us for all the girly talk.
BTW, I do get a cardiovascular response (worsening) but it doesn’t last long.
Be well, Jude,
I love this thread Heather, here’s a favorite of mine, as I go off to my incredibly early bedtime:
At the still point of the turning world. Neither flesh nor fleshless;
Neither from nor towards; at the still point, there the dance is,
But neither arrest nor movement. And do not call it fixity,
Where past and future are gathered. Neither movement from nor towards,
Neither ascent nor decline. Except for the point, the still point,
There would be no dance, and there is only the dance.
I can only say there we have been: but I cannot say where.
And I cannot say, how long, for that is to place it in time.
~ T.S. Elliot
Hi Heather, cardiovascular trigger… all I know from my experience is that I’ve slowly been able to increase my exercise workout even to the point that I actually perspire!!! But in the past, any exercise which causes blood to rush to my head, like push-ups on the floor, or walking on a raised treadmill, almost like it’s feeling the pressure in my head from all that blood rushing around, then I’m in trouble, is that cardiovascular trigger do you think? How’re you going today Heather?
Talk about pig-headed, I’m just heading off for another session but will exclude that little exercise and see how I go, I love exercising (it gives me a sense of normality) and it does seem that with each visit I can stretch my limits just a tiny bit more. I won’t be doing push-ups though ever again I’m sure!!
Julie, that’s great news about your improvement and seems to make sense about the pushing the limits thing a bit. It’s really hard though isn’t it, because noone wants to end up back in ‘dizzyland’ again. I’ve always said two steps forward, one step backwards (sometimes six!) and maybe you need to test your boundaries just a tiny bit. Someone posted on this board not so long ago about going out and pushing their day a bit and found that they were really finding the benefits. I think the words are ‘slowly and cautiously’. Oh and Julie… just as well you live on a big lot of land, tell your hubby to stay inside while you get behind the wheel and give it a go, yikes! :mrgreen: Good luck and keep us posted.