Hannah
Wow, I hope that contact lens helps! sounds like a good idea.
The hallucinations - ugh! The first time it happened, the way I described it to my doctor was, i woke up and couldn’t stop dreaming. All morning, anytime I would let my mind relax, without intentional thought, i would go into a dream, not like a daydream, I mean a real vivid dream. It was scarey because I was afraid it wouldn’t go away. I downed some Valium which, for whatever reason, helped quite a bit. By noon, it quit. That day i reduced my dose of Zoloft and the next day the same thing happened, so I downed some Valium right away and, i don’t know why, but it helped. Next day, everything was normal. The other thing I felt that first day was an enormous thirst. My mouth felt like the dessert. I felt the same way, as did Scott, when he felt his Topamax kick in.
The second time I had hallucinations on Zoloft was when my doctor tried to push me up past 75. I told him that I saw no improvement between 50 and 75 but he wanted to try it anyway. Okay, I can do this. The very first 1/8 of a pill and I started seeing things out of the corner of my eyes. Just, like there was somebody moving, like in the shadows. I didn’t think much of it until one day i saw my cat out of the corner of my eyes (she wasn’t there) and it dawned on me “Zoloft!” I went back down to my regular dose - this time it took a full week before those symptoms totally went away, because I had been on the higher dose for a full week. This wasn’t as scarey, but they were not going to go away, they were actually getting worse as the week went on. So i called my doc and said, I’m at my limit with Zoloft - on to Topamax!
I was scared enough the first time it happened that when my doc suggested that I stabilize and try again even more slowly I said no. But we went over my contraindications and when he said - well then I’m at a loss, I said, ok, i’ll try the zoloft again. I did, i’m glad I did. But, yea, it was scarey. I sure am glad I don’t live with those kinds of symptoms everyday.
SSRIs are powerful drugs, i’m not at all sure how they’ve become so popular among people who don’t have disabling depression, given how hard they are to go up on.
Hope that all helps - good luck with those contacts,
Julie