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Crystal,
I just wanted to mention that I can empathize with so much of what you have said. I rarely go to restaurants (I used to love eating out and also loved to cook). When I have gone, on many occasions, I was crying or nearly crying at the table. I have also ran out (well I should more say walked out with great difficulty) many times.
Are you able to function with the klonopin? Unfortunately, I tried it in the past. I believe only .5 at night, and was still sedated the next day. I am so med sensitive.
lisa
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Thanks Lisa,
For me I think it is the Klonopin that has allowed me to do a lot more than before. I’d say it i’m functioning 25% more each day than before… so I’m functioning at 50% to 75% on good days. But then again, last week, I had 3 days in a row where nothing seemed to help and I was at 0% all those days. It’s so frustrating. I don’t believe this combo of meds is my cure, just a temporary solution. But I am grateful for those days I can actually do more during the day, and maybe go to a restaurant to eat, or run errands when I need too. But still sometimes it’s a struggle to do even those things. I still don’t feel really good though, or even close to normal, but I have to say I have definitely improved from where I was before, and i’m pretty sure it’s the klonopin that’s helping.
Last year I finally decided to refuse to go anywhere or do anything because I knew that I would just be suffering the whole time, and have a poor experience so why bother? My family is now used to me being a flake, LOL. I’ve learned not to make plans, I always tell people it depends on how I’m feeling that day. I have given up so much of my life and feel my life is wasting away. I’m in my mid thirties and these are supposed to be the years I’m supposed to be on the road with my career, and raising a family. Now I just don’t know if that’s ever going to happen for me. I miss traveling and going to concerts. My whole life has changed. I think somebody once mentioned on these boards that they were grieving for their old self or their old life. That is where I’m at now. I want to feel ‘normal’ again, but I don’t think that will happen. I’m slowly learning to accept that this is my new ‘normal’ for now. The only good thing out of all this is I have really learned to appreciate the small things in life, like smelling the roses in my backyard, playing fetch with my dog… Haha. My perspective in life has definitely changed and continues to everyday.
I’ve been unemployed this entire time, had to quit my job because of this, and I still don’t feel like I would be able to handle sitting in an office again, with the office lighting and working on a different computer. I feel I could work from home if I could just find a job that would allow that, and would allow me all 7 days of the week to do 40 hours worth of work.
Well sorry for rambling, I usually don’t contribute much to these forums, mostly try to keep up with other’s experiences here. Thanks for listening everyone 
I hope you start to feel better sooner than later Lisa.
Take Care,
Crystal