Tuesday, mowed the lawn, front and back ā large back yard. We have a walk-behind push-mower, gas-run. Self-propelled ā just hold down the metal handlebar and steer. Donāt have to push the mower yourself.
Was quite sunny out ā though admittedly, sunlight doesnāt bother me so much as fluorescent indoor lighting ā but I did the entire lawn and felt quite OK. Guess grass isnāt very āvisually complexā (I was staring down at the lawn most of the time). Certainly not ābadā like being in a grocery store is, though in terms of self-motion, itās quite similar. I felt almost as good as I do when driving a car. (Maybe holding the handle was keeping me feeling steady?) I certainly perspired, but even more confusingly, the next 24-or-so hours were easily among the better days Iāve had.
Iām back to ānormal dizzyā again as of last night. But sure donāt understand why I did so well both during and AFTER a fairly exerting (at least, for me, right about now) activity.
Also about to begin Effexor tomorrow a.m., which I sure do hope does the trick.
Give it up! There is no making sense of MAV in general.
You crack me up with your overanalyzing sometimes because I see myself in you. Iām the type who wants an answer for everything, but this whole experience is challenging that aspect of my thinking. Logic just doesnāt apply here. :?
I am convinced there is a logic, or something like it, to all this somewhere ā it just is really hard to put all the pieces together. Kind of like being given a 5000-piece jigsaw puzzle but the box doesnāt show what the completed picture looks like.
Iāve been an analyzing, āhave to try to find out the answersā kind of person since I was little. If thereās one thing Iām determined to find some answers to, itās this.
Would like to fast-forward to 10, 20, 50 years from now and see what medicine will someday figure out about migraines.
'Course, Iād also like to go into my DNA and do some debugging, if I could. If only.
I personally see nothing wrong with wanting to know Why, What and why not, etc. This has been part of my problem with some of the doctors I have seen that just says take a pill and it will be all better , I am not sure what you have but lets see if this medication works and then if not we will go onto the next one.
I need someone to paint me a picture, connect all the dots, tell me exactly what is wrong and what to do and make it better and what not to do to make it worse.
Will any of us ever be what we once thought was normal, I am not so sure but what happened along the way in our lives to change all of that.
As I told one of the doctors last week, this time last year I was a very normal, hardworking woman with a career and family and now all of that is gone within the blink of an eye and no one can really tell me why or what happened.
I was active, outgoing and some would even say very opinionated at times and now I am none of those and I would like so much to at least be able to look forward to things once againā¦at least just a bitā¦
And do I want to know how all this works , and why it happened and how it happened you betā¦will we ever know maybe the DNA analization is not such a bad ideaā¦do we all have a bad gene somewhere in the mix?
None of it really makes a lot of sense , especially when the doctors do not even agree on what it is , how it effects our bodies and what is the best treatment for itā¦
Marci ā Donāt get me wrong, I understand what youāre saying. Appreciate it. Who knows, maybe the body just appreciated being pushed and decided it had enough strength to say āOK, we can do that ā¦ this time.ā If so, too bad my brain wonāt respond that way more often. Usually, itās not so much āI can do thatā as āDonāt even think about it!ā
Or maybe my lawnmower has endorphins in the exhaust fumes and I just got a temporary feel-good high.
Actually, the first few times I tried to start it, it would cough, start up, run for about two minutes, and then sputter and conk out. I wanted to say, āYeah, know how you feel!ā But I didnāt actually say anything, because Iām not currently on speaking terms with lawn-care products. (And the kitchen appliances would think Iām nuts.)
Timeless ā I strongly suspect thereās at least a few wayward genes related to migraine. MAV is different from traditional migraine because MAV is often continuous, not episodic. Neurologically speaking, I wonder how similar migraine and MAV actually are. The confusion and questions you raise (and that many have mentioned, myself included) ā especially about the drug-treatment side of all this ā make me think thereās something weāre āmissingā or ānot getting.ā Otherwise, presumably, there should be a āone-size-fits-almost-allā drug for MAV.
I was actually just teasing you a bit. If questions arenāt asked, the mysteries of MAV and migraine in general will never be solved. Iāve been spinning my wheels with it for over 18 months now, going over and over the potential causes and treatments in my headā¦maybe if I do this or try that, Iāll get betterā¦
Before this MAV adventure, Iāve been able to solve problems with much analysis and hardwork. So far, my usual approach is only partially working. Iām better than I was in the beginning, but Iām still struggling to get back to a ānormalā lifestyle. I guess Iāll have to work with a new ānormal.ā
Keep asking questions; maybe youāll find the answers for all of us! Now, I gotta get home to mow my lawn so I can tryout your exhaust fumes theory! :lol:
