Hello!
I am new to this site although I have lurked on and off since being afflicted. For context, I have had what I assume to be MAV for 4 years. It came on suddenly when I was 26 with common symptoms such as rocking, walking on marshmallows, light sensitivity, low tinnitus, and probably much more. The first year I couldnāt walk into a store. I had to wear sunglasses everywhere. My head was heavy and I felt drunk and wobbly. I had to stop working. Those things are gone now and I am fully functional in my everyday life.
I am turning 30 in a few weeks and I have come a long way. I have not been medicated other than the occasional lorazapam for anxiety in the past, but have not taken one in 2 years. The doctors I went to really had nothing for me and would tell me to sleep regularly, stay hydrated, etc. One said migraines, and the others said not sure. Nothing was ever confirm but after reading these forums, this is definitely what I have.
I would say I am now 80% better and lead a normal life. My one weakness is motion. For example, if I am in a car moving, I feel fine. When the car stops at a light, I still feel like I am moving for about 15 seconds. I generally will do some deep breathing and it will go away. My anxiety shoots up during this time but I always tell myself I can get out of the car whenever I want and then I start moving again and I am fine. If I take a long road trip for several hours in the car, I will feel like I just stepped off a treadmill for a bit, but it always goes away. I can live with this. I have also been using a balance board to train my brain. I use it for about 30 seconds and I will feel like I am walking into the floor for a few seconds after but then it goes away.
Now, my fiance is from England ( I am in California) and his sister is having a wedding in October in England. I have not been on an airplane for 6 years, and this seems like my one last hurdle to get over. I am terrified of getting on an airplane. I am afraid because I donāt have the option of getting off if I feel weird ( like in the car). I am in therapy about this as well but Iād like advice from people who are like me and understand what this can feel like. I have scheduled a 1.5 hour flight at the end of the month as a test, and every day it approaches, my anxiety shoots up.
What I have done that helps includes: deep breathing, being distracted, moving my body, listening to a positive podcast/music, etc. I also have bought EarPlanes and have a prescription for Xanax and Lorazapam, however, I have never taken Xanax and Lorazapam makes me pass out, and sleepiness makes my symptoms worse so I donāt think it would be wise to take on a flight. I have read a lot of people talking about Valium but I fear I will still pass out with any benzo?
I have overcome a lot of my MAV fears in the 4 years Iāve had it. Walking into grocery stores everyday, driving on long trips, going to the zoo, doing long hikes, using a computer, all the things I have had to re-train my nervous system to be ānormalā again with. An airplane seems to be the last level for me, and itās been the hardest to accept so far.
If anyone has any positive tips, tricks, experiences, I would love to hear about them. I am done living in fear, so I would appreciate not reading anything that would discourage me. Travel has always been my passion, and I want it back.
Thank you!