I’m so sorry Julie,
yep this mav seem like its just waiting to pounce on us, dosnt it.
looks like we are’nt out of the water yet! it seems all we are doing is pushing along, but sometimes we do need to just cry our bum’s off.
we need that, and deserve it! :twisted:
I’m sick of the fight too.
and really hope there’s no turning back I dont know if I could take it.
I’m so sick of the fight!, thats for sure.
jen 
That’s the thing, when things get bad, like they did yesterday, after going through all i went through, which was nothing like i went through a year ago, NOTHING, i just **cannot ** go back there. i don’t know how i could ever do it. of course i would have no choice, would i. (except for that spoon idea of yours) :twisted:
I’m okay, and after our long IM chat today, i’m feeling well, and almost back to myself, but as you can tell, i’m still mad and the wind is out of my sails. Which is exactly what this despicable monster does, doesn’t it - it’s just waiting, lurking, so that just when you’re feeling like you’ve got a chance, BAM! i have to keep in mind that i’m not fully medicated yet.
And i have to keep in mind the things you reminded me of: I went off Zoloft fairly quicky in order to go on Effexor. i’m still on a very low dose of effexor, especially as compared to the Zoloft i was on. I also found that once off the Zoloft i was falling asleep without my Ambien. After seven years of being on Ambien i was just all of a sudden not taking it - no Zoloft stimulation + lots of Klonopin = falling to sleep really easily. So that may be messing with me. not a good idea to go off Ambien cold turkey. thanks for helping me process all that Jen. You’re great. You just talked me through it real slow and easy. You missed your calling 
Julie