As all you are acutely aware, living with this ailment can be more than a daunting task. As I’ve explained to several friends and acquaintances, once this ailment gets a hold of you, there are times when you simply can’t do anything about it. No matter what background you come from, what kind of physical condition you’re in, etc., if it has you, it has you.
A little over 3 weeks ago, after a 3 year struggle with this ailment, I decided to try to work outside the home on a full-time basis. I was a bit apprehensive, and taking the job was basically designed to test my threshold, but so far, it’s worked out pretty well. In fact, after 3 weeks, I’m improving even more.
At first, it was a difficult adjustment. I had some rough spells, and had some doubts, but persevered, and hid my symptoms well. I knew when to accelerate my activities, and I knew when to back off. In short, I paced myself as judiciously as possible. At the end of last week, I seemed to hit my stride, and I’m becoming less concerned about the future.
It is noteworthy that during the last 3 weeks, outside of my job, I’d been working on an extensive, fairly complex article for a publication. When I finished the project, it came out to over 9,000 words and 26 pages. I was fortunate enough to get some excellent reviews, and most importantly, I didn’t experience as much difficulty in completing the project compared to previous projects a few years ago, when I was not working outside of the home.
Multi-tasking between a new job, and finishing and editing the article, proved to be palatable. In taking into account my normal work hours, and the hours required to complete the article, I was essentially working 52 hour weeks. I have not been able to do anything close to that since late 2004, before I was stricken with this ailment.
All told, when you feel down and out, when you feel as though your future is extremely limited, hope does exist.