Can I just vent? I know this site is more for medical information but I know this is the only place that can at least try to understand this rush of emotions I’m experiencing right now.
I just dropped my husband off to see our favorite artist and I’m a mess. For some reason that made this illness way too real.
Backstory is that I won the tickets when participating on a raffle about a month ago, I never thought I was going to win front row tickets to such a big event, so when they announced me as the winner I was super excited for him but from the get go we knew I wasn’t going, the lights, sound and crowd would make me a mess and I much rather have him have a good time by himself that be worried about me having an attack there.
He asked a thousand times if it was ok for him to go alone and even said he felt so bad about me not being able to go but I said it was ok …I swear I was fine until he got out of the car, that’s when I lost it and started crying …I miss my old self & it makes me so sad realizing that who knows when we’ll be able to do the things we loved to do as a couple. I’m so scared of this condition and the unknown that comes with it.
I know it sounds stupid and that’s why I decided to come here to vent instead of telling a “regular” person. Sorry about the vent