To quote from Scott’s previous thread.
Well, as most of you know I went out to Abu Dhabi on 25th April for 4 weeks to spend time in the sun with my brother/sister-in-law/1 year old niece as they live there. It was magical.
The Weds before I flew out I had a mini spin in the morning which wrote me off for the whole day and made me feel terribly ill. This was day 1 of my period. After that I seemed to recover quite quickly and by the Monday I was pretty much ok to take the flight by myself to Abu Dhabi.
The evening I arrived I increased my meds (Nortriptyline) to 30mg.
As the days progressed I got increasingly better. Virtually no symptoms all day long and the chronic rocking I was suffering with was now only mild and noticable only when I was going to bed. I literally felt 90% like my old self. I was out every day and most nights with little or no problems/symptoms.
When it came to my period time, I was anxious that another spin was on its way with days of feeling crap to follow. But hooray no spin and only 1 bad headache which my Valium got rid of. Over the 5 days of my period I was doing about 80% which was still pretty good.
I got home and the following week everything was still progressing swimmingly and I felt like I had turned a corner finally. I also increased the meds to 35mg.
Next I decided to take the plunge and contact my agency about going back to work. I told them I wasnt able to do a full on contract like I had previously had at HSBC but needed something low-key to ease me back in.
So I started a new job on Tuesday with a Japanese Bank. Very low stress, no long hours (just straight forward 9am - 5pm) and then the usual hour commute either side. I was really feeling like I would be able to handle it as I was in this new frame of mind after feeling so good in AD and the job is a walk in the park. Wrong.
Tuesday morning after arriving, I had a mini spin at my desk (but managed to hide my distress and carry on with the day). Then by the time I got home Tues eve I felt ropey as hell. I had another spin Tues night and spent the rest of the eve in tears as my balance was then off and the rocking was back - I took 2mg Valium to help things calm down. However, I was determined to not cave and go back to work the next day. Yesterday was a little easier but I still felt off and then last night we went to see Kings of Leon in concernt (VIP corp box so no moshing with the crowd!).
Today however is a whole different story. I feel like total crap. My head is buzzing big time, and the promise of a spin is lurking. The back of my head neck feels like it’s being electricuted and I’m getting the little zaps again. The girl opposite me keeps asking me if I’m ok coz I look pale and unwell. I just dont understand it.
I dont feel I’m being bothered by the lighting or the screen (but who knows) but just feel like my MAV knows I’m at work so is cranking up. It’ll be all I can do to get through tomorrow. The bank have asked me back next week and I’ve said I can only manage 4 days but I’m wondering if I really CAN manage 4 days!
It is also my birthday next Sat 11th and I am having all my friends over for a BBQ and feel like I’m not going to survive it.
I just dont know what to do for the best. I really need to be back at work as I’m broke but dont want to do myself more damage. I just want the Abu Dhabi feeling to come back - it was so good!!!