OK, I’m in a bit of a spot here. About 3.5 weeks into verapamil and no “better days” as of yet. I see Hain in a week, but I promised myself I’d stay on verap. for 8 weeks.
In the last 3 weeks, I’ve been doing a lot of staying at home, mostly (a) working from the computer and (b) resting in front of a TV, lying down because I feel OK when I do. I don’t quite understand it, but I can do the home computer quite well, even for extended periods of time.
Now today, I came into my office to try to do some computer work. Even when it’s at its busiest, the office only has 4-5 people, including me, and it’s a very small, quiet office space in a big, fairly empty building. The only real noises are of talking, typing and phones ringing.
We have bright fluorescent lighting, and there’s only one light switch, so I can’t just shut off all the lights. They bug me no end, though, and lately, I usually work at home because lately I tolerate low light much better, including when I’m at a computer. (The monitor’s glow is OK.)
I feel worse in the past 3.5 weeks. Long before I ever saw Hain, I came into the office fairly frequently (even 5x/week at times), because we were on a deadline for a big project. BUT … when I started verapamil, I decided not to come in very often — figured I’d take it easy while I gave the med. a chance. The verapamil itself has given me some occasional low-grade (non-migraine) headaches and head pressure, but now coming into the office and trying to work is harder than it ever was before. I used to be able to ignore the dizziness at least enough that the office laptop wasn’t too bad to use. Nowadays, coming into the office exacerbates the dizziness, and the laptop is very hard to use.
So, as I think I said, I promised not to leave the verap. (or switch, etc) until I’d given it a full 8 weeks, but I’m not sure what to do. One friend feels extremely confident (especially after praying on the matter) that this “is” the med. for me if I give it time, and I’ll trust that, but until then, should I continue taking it easy and working from home, or is it my own fault for not pushing myself enough / being fairly inactive in the last 3 1/2 weeks (i.e., should I push myself to come in)?