Hi all. I haven’t posted or updated like I said I would for a long time. It seemed like an Everest sized task trying to get everything straight, outcomes, etc, so I will update everything at some point, just not today.
The incident that had me so unsettled was this: I ride horses. As you can well image, that activity has dropped off significantly in my life since Sept when this all started. I decided not to show my horse this year, but I am still on the committee for our dressage show, which is happening now. There’s been major work and stress getting this show together and making it run smoothly, which has also been stressful due to our horrible non stop rain. ( I’m sure I’m growing gills!). Yesterday I was watching some competitors ride their tests and the I had 2or 3 big spins, and shortly after the tremors started. At that point I knew I had overdone it. I told 2 people that I would call out their tests for them(you read the tests to the rider out loud in front of the crowd and the judge…it helps the rider remember the test). I read the first test to both riders and everything was fine, but when it came time for the second test I sat looking at the paper and couldn’t understand the words. They made no sense. It may as well have been written in Russian. I started to panic for a number of reasons. I didn’t want to ruin the girls’ ride by making a mistake. Fortunately we had a bit of a break, I walked over to a friend a quietly told her what was going on and asked her to read. I then burst into tears and came to my motorhome to lie down. I slept for an hour or so and felt better, but felt " off " for most of the day.
Is this something that has happened to anyone else? I know that I pushed myself too hard the last few days, that’s pretty evident to me, but I’ve never had that happen before. Very disturbing. Other than being very tired, I’m fine today, but the day is very young. Lol!